Crazy few weeks

For those of you who don't know....

My life has become a bit complicated. My relationships with my two best friends has become strained. And while I usually just love life, there have been times where I can't even stand knowing that I'm the reason that my friends now have complicated lives as well.

It has been a crazy few weeks. BUT -- I have to say that even with all the heartache and frustration, I'm thankful for the opportunities that I have to learn from it.

This is why my blog has not been updated. This is why I don't know what's appropriate to put on my blog and what's not, and this is why it'll be a little while before I add any significant updates.

I'll keep you updated--once I can think clearly enough to write.

Dreams...

It's hard letting go of dreams. I just read through some posts that my friends have written recently, and it made my mind go forward--imagining what my life will be like in the future when I'm married and beginning to have kids. I can honestly say that it makes me sad knowing that I won't be sharing those things with Branden. This has been a really tough step for me. I love him, but I honestly believe that (for now at the very least) it's better that he and I are just friends. It's been hard coming to terms with the fact that I won't be there with him through life's ups and downs, and that it won't be him who holds my hand through the major events in my life. I suppose this is just another important part of life though...holding my head high and trying to do what's right even when it's tough.